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Suicide is the Ultimate Manifestation of Depression

“So many people suffer, just as we do. They may hide it well on the surface, they may be able to suppress their suffering, ignore it, or distract themselves from it—but deep within every human being lies an ocean of suffering, and our loving presence can touch the suffering of others, and send them the Love, Kindness, and Positive Energy that they so desperately long for.”

Joseph Kaufman

This is the place for you if you suffer from depression, want to understand how to get well from depression, have someone close to you who suffers from depression, and especially if you are concerned about yourself or others self-harming.

Firstly, and this IS important:

If you or a loved one is suffering from depression, there is no substitute for competent medical help, in the first instance. Once you have someone looking after the chemical imbalances, then all the other recovery strategies will be so much more effective. 

Secondly, if you are professional working in the field of suicide prevention, critical care, counselling or any other related field, I take my hat off to you. What a great job you do. Without you, the world would be so much darker for so many people. Welcome.

This is a place where I can share with you things that will uplift, encourage, make you laugh and sometimes things that make you cry.

This is a place for me to share some of the lessons I’ve learned in dealing with, and recovering, from depression myself, and having people close to me die by suicide. I don’t have all the answers – not even most of the answers – but I do have some.

This is place I want to be a beacon of hope and a place of healing and recovery, from depression, addiction, grief and self-harm.

I know that some of you may have come here because you are in terrible pain and are struggling to keep going.

If You Have Come Here Because You Are Considering Harming Yourself

  • Call a Suicide Prevention Line.
  • Get medical help IMMEDIATELY.
  • Post on a Suicide Prevention Social Media Group (Facebook has many) and ask for help.
  • Wander into a church, a mosque, a synagogue or a temple, talk to people on self-help seminars, ask for help.
  • Or, if you can’t ask for help because you are feeling too raw, then sit quietly in one of these places and an angel will appear.

Be brave and reach out to a stranger for help – know that there are angels all around you – people who WILL listen.

There are those who will hold your hand and who truly care.

Speak to whatever you believe is God, ask the Universe, seek help from a Higher Power, or anything that you believe in or feel comfortable in appealing to – even if it is just your inner self.

Or download “The Despair Manifesto” and read it right to the end.

Why Am I Doing This?

What do you do when you know that people are suffering and dying from self-harm and overwhelming despair and depression.

While you read this page somewhere around 10 – 15 people are going to take their life – the numbers are simply staggering – 120 people an hour, or nearly 3,000 people a day.

I have lost people very close to me to suicide – family, friends and lovers and colleagues.

What do you say to someone, whose child died in their arms from suicide?

What possible words can ever make a father, or a mother feel whole again after such overwhelming tragedy?

Three years ago, one of my colleagues, a warm generous man, a man of substance and goodness, went home one afternoon and found his 17-year-old daughter lying on the floor, after a attempting to take her life, and as he cradled her in his arm, she passed from this world. My friend was broken into a thousand pieces.

He thinks she didn’t really mean to kill herself that day – an impulse came into her mind and she acted on it – and the result was utter tragedy for all those who loved her and for herself.

My friend’s world ended that day.

And I said:

Enough is Enough!

I resolved that there had to be something I could do – something that might just stop one person or ten, to find within themselves, the courage and the pause to stop and to pull back from that permanent act of self-obliteration.

The result is this website – which is a blog and resource site to prevent, understand and be aware of the issues surrounding suicide for vulnerable individuals.

I have also written “The Despair Manifesto” which is a guide for Suicide Prevention, Awareness and Recovery – and it is available through this site for download, and of course, it is free of charge and access to everything here is free-of-charge.

“The Despair Manifesto” was a difficult document to write because it mean delving into thoughts that were pulled from my soul, as someone who knows the darkness of the effect of suicide but who enjoys the sunshine of life. I have been someone who can look into the heart of darkness and see the glimmer of light that leads away from that abyss.

My fervent wish is that somewhere, sometime, someone will read something here and pause and find that nugget of strength in their heart to keep going for one more minute, one more hour, one more day, until the pain recedes and the light streams in. 

Because the sun WILL always shine again, and life will ALWAYS get better.

Suicide is the Ultimate Manifestation of Depression

“So many people suffer, just as we do. They may hide it well on the surface, they may be able to suppress their suffering, ignore it, or distract themselves from it—but deep within every human being lies an ocean of suffering, and our loving presence can touch the suffering of others, and send them the Love, Kindness, and Positive Energy that they so desperately long for.”

Joseph Kaufman

This is the place for you if you suffer from depression, want to understand how to get well from depression, have someone close to you who suffers from depression, and especially if you are concerned about yourself or others self-harming.

Firstly, and this IS important:

If you or a loved one is suffering from depression, there is no substitute for competent medical help, in the first instance. Once you have someone looking after the chemical imbalances, then all the other recovery strategies will be so much more effective. 

Secondly, if you are professional working in the field of suicide prevention, critical care, counselling or any other related field, I take my hat off to you. What a great job you do. Without you, the world would be so much darker for so many people. Welcome.

This is a place where I can share with you things that will uplift, encourage, make you laugh and sometimes things that make you cry.

This is a place for me to share some of the lessons I’ve learned in dealing with, and recovering, from depression myself, and having people close to me die by suicide. I don’t have all the answers – not even most of the answers – but I do have some.

This is place I want to be a beacon of hope and a place of healing and recovery, from depression, addiction, grief and self-harm.

I know that some of you may have come here because you are in terrible pain and are struggling to keep going.

If You Have Come Here Because You Are Considering Harming Yourself

  • Call a Suicide Prevention Line.
  • Get medical help IMMEDIATELY.
  • Post on a Suicide Prevention Social Media Group (Facebook has many) and ask for help.
  • Wander into a church, a mosque, a synagogue or a temple, talk to people on self-help seminars, ask for help.
  • Or, if you can’t ask for help because you are feeling too raw, then sit quietly in one of these places and an angel will appear.

Be brave and reach out to a stranger for help – know that there are angels all around you – people who WILL listen.

There are those who will hold your hand and who truly care.

Speak to whatever you believe is God, ask the Universe, seek help from a Higher Power, or anything that you believe in or feel comfortable in appealing to – even if it is just your inner self.

Or download “The Despair Manifesto” and read it right to the end.

Why Am I Doing This?

What do you do when you know that people are suffering and dying from self-harm and overwhelming despair and depression.

While you read this page somewhere around 10 – 15 people are going to take their life – the numbers are simply staggering – 120 people an hour, or nearly 3,000 people a day.

I have lost people very close to me to suicide – family, friends and lovers and colleagues.

What do you say to someone, whose child died in their arms from suicide?

What possible words can ever make a father, or a mother feel whole again after such overwhelming tragedy?

Three years ago, one of my colleagues, a warm generous man, a man of substance and goodness, went home one afternoon and found his 17-year-old daughter lying on the floor, after a suicide attempt, and as he cradled her in his arm, she passed from this world. My friend was broken into a thousand pieces.


He thinks she didn’t really mean to kill herself that day – an impulse came into her mind and she acted on it – and the result was utter tragedy for all those who loved her and for herself.

My friend’s world ended that day.

And I said:

Enough is Enough!

I resolved that there had to be something I could do – something that might just stop one person or ten, to find within themselves, the courage and the pause to stop and to pull back from that permanent act of self-obliteration.

The result is this website – which is a blog and resource site to prevent, understand and be aware of the issues surrounding suicide for vulnerable individuals.

I have also written “The Despair Manifesto” which is a guide for Suicide Prevention, Awareness and Recovery – and it is available through this site for download, and of course, it is free of charge and access to everything here is free-of-charge.

“The Despair Manifesto” was a difficult document to write because it mean delving into thoughts that were pulled from my soul, as someone who knows the darkness of the effect of suicide but who enjoys the sunshine of life. I have been someone who can look into the heart of darkness and see the glimmer of light that leads away from that abyss.

My fervent wish is that somewhere, sometime, someone will read something here and pause and find that nugget of strength in their heart to keep going for one more minute, one more hour, one more day, until the pain recedes and the light streams in. 

Because the sun WILL always shine again, and life will ALWAYS get better.

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This site is not meant to be a replacement for competent medical help. Depression, addiction, trauma, anxiety are complex medical conditions to treat, and first stop should always be competent medical help. Find medical assistance you feel comfortable with as the first step, then look at the strategies here as adjuncts to medical treatment.

Want to Help?

Spread the Word!

This site is not meant to be a replacement for competent medical help. Depression, addiction, trauma, anxiety are complex medical conditions to treat, and first stop should always be competent medical help. Find medical assistance you feel comfortable with as the first step, then look at the strategies here as adjuncts to medical treatment.